This is not entirely true because when it comes to small children, I have patience like a saint. But when it comes to myself and what I want for myself, like losing weight, I want it and like yesterday.
Where did this animosity come from? The fitting rooms at H&M, that's where. After checking out the iPad at the mall, I sent the kids to the indoor play space and went up to H&M, my favorite store. They had more $13 dresses that I simply had to try on and a buy one get one free offer on select blouses. Who's going to pass that up? Not this girl. Anyway, fast forward to the fitting room... I had success with what I chose, but looking in the mirror gave me a sobering glance at what still needs to happen to make me look my absolute best. It was disheartening, to say the least. I mean, my self-confidence is still intact, but I just want to look the way I want to look now. Screw the phrase, "good things come to those who wait." I want it now.
I guess what I need to do is to have more determination and faith that it will happen, that I have to be patient. I need to learn to have patience with myself and the process. I've done this before and it works, but for some reason it seems harder now. Faulty memory? Perhaps, and I can only live in the present and not dwell on how it was in the past or how it might be in the future. How zen of me - ha!
Keeping the faith... and going out for a walk!